i am unhappy

It is quite clear that I am unhappy now.I cnt get thru to
You,to them.am I stressful?everythg I do,I did,is unappreciated
I have never been praised for anything.
I that have so much talent,have been reduced to a mediocre
That I talk too much about how I feel,how not when the discussion
Holds its one sided.u just ask how I feel to hear n guage where
We are,yet u have nothg to say.
U made fun of ur gifts(vals n buffday).is there any pleasing
I am getting tired o.

I am physically n psychologically tired!
I love u,

on stories

I am sorry if I come here only to lament,its that I am never right
And that I never have any valid reason to be angry,its somehow
Always my fault.I somehow always wind up apologising.
I was so shocked when I read those mails.I felt sick inside
Very sick.like I had been living a lie.times of niceness felt
Like making up for nastiness.
Wow!is there even time?I'll say one thing sha-apart from my
Immediate family,I am the only one in this world that cares about me
PEriod.
I dnt care what any1 says.

mean spirited or understress

I heard somewhere that we know people best when they are angry or their guards
Are down. I have been pushed and told to go away several times.and I am considering
Walking away.
I am hypersensitive or so I hv always been told.now I cnt even say how I feel
And its been a year.shit with all the too much information crap.
I am trying to be careful but what about me?I am tired of forming activity
To not feel the feelings I am feeling. I have been turned into a pseudo slave
Enough with wat d wifey is supposed to do.I dnt see a ring on my finger yet.

Its so unfair to put someone 1st all the time and get snapped at.I am sick of it
Its unfair.

How do I say my point without causing a fight.

I wish I could just say wat was on my mind.

I am tired of walking on egg shells

Freakingly tired!

I shall however not take the childish route and just speak my mind.

a beautiful mind

Sitting alone in darkness in someone else's house,what a very sad day.I cannot say anything wonderful
About today,as things haven't changed.my car is still misbehaving and my outta tears.
I find also(shocks) that the world doesn't revolve around me.hilarious!I have the allusion to the
Statement unfair.an injustice to my gentle self albeit troublesome at times.
I think now the quiteness of my room well protected under a net is much more appealing.
I have also been accused of being jobless, not literarily but lacking in enough social activites
To preoccupy my otherwise selfish self.
Extremely shocking as I thought that it was the reverse.
Well! Well! Somthing must be said fpr transferred agression.
I fear that I am being taken for granted,tonite however there is no help to be had because
The driver isn't well disposed to my goodself. So I am left to whims and caprices of the flies
Out here tonight. I hardly doubt that anyone is trying hard to get to me tonite.
Amazing! I am being discriminated against.pray,guess on what basis.might it be because I have
No accent or no foreign education or does visiting the Queen's land automatically transform or
Upgrade one's class. Ah shocks!never thot I'll see the day.
well my take on that really is class isn't hereditary like genes(do d science).

raw emotions!

I am going to write with no holds barred,for there lies release.the snapping is getting too
Frequent.I know its stress at work,but still there is no excuse!it stung,how it stung
And its the second time this week!shocks how no matter how pissed I am, I always
Defer to u.why r u so impatient this days?

I need to sleep rite now!deep sleep,where I can feel no pain or hurt.amazing how
I am always available to pick ur call and ur not arund to pick mine.

I am tired now and need to sleep,ur harshness left me dumbfounded!

I want to not pick ur calls as u ur plain mean n rude.

U could actually hv said I'll call u later without d wats u uttered.

Words r wat I have and words hurt me n u used words to hurt me!u knew words
Would hurt me.

it would be nice period!!

To get reassured from time to time. To be taken on actual outings with friends,
Loungin on d bed doesn't count.to say stuff when you are not prompted.

To not be so polite and be more selfless, to assume I can read your mind.to mean
Stuff u say.

To be more sensitive to my already sensitive self.

I am pissed at myself bcos :I shulda come home on saturday nite jejely,I am
Pissed bcos I felt dismissed.

I shulda just said,look iv gotta get hm cos I really shuld send some time at
Home.

So I was upset when a seemly tired u,was up n dressed ready to jump out.

I understd that ur bored.couldn't u have bn nice about it?

the moon inspired tale

What is my reality?its a lot of things.memories flash.so many,I wonder why
Its jumping from 24 to 13 and back to 5,then I am in her class again and I
Am hearing and the words my soul needs, but I need to sleep,I will take care
Of life when I wake up or when this movie is over.
I want to be rich,no doubt ,why isn't anyone paying me to sleep n watch tv?
Ahh I just need a little push.
Something to shake me out my passivity

on bad days and sandfiles

I had a day no doubt,cnt claim that I that was the worst
But somethg snapped.I couldn't sleep and d sandflies wouldn't
Let ,quite tired of sitting hours on end in traffic.
I needed tlc so I called who I thot could produce it.
He had a bad day too so he wasn't receptive n she returned.
The paranoid gal we all love to hate.

What a beautiful mind.I need to sleep to eat and dcd wat it
Is that will become of our lives.
Technology at our tips yet lazy as a log.

Ah but there be oil in the backyard so why dnt we drill
Jokes pls
Be not deluded!

I owe myself lots of sleep
And not drug induced.
Just sleep!

when i put you first

The only thing I am sure of right now is that I dnt want to be here.and I am
Not feeling much these days because if I needed to sleep,I'll just pop a pill
Lovely because no one really cares and I am angry a lot.at everyone at you,
Yes u,for being careless when I am so so careful with and everytime I think that
We are getting closer,u do something that shows be u really dnt care.

What is the use of calling u when I need help when ur never there 4 me.I
Wonder why I love u so much when u dnt even care to ask if I am feeling better
Evryone is selfish but for one.the one they have given their hearts too.

I am kinda tired and I know I should focus my energies elsewhere.

I just know that if we dnt work,then am done.

I will happily transfer all the love I have given u to myself and for a change
I'll be appreciated.I deserve to be.I owe it to myself to be.etc