tears and more tears

8 hours and several kilometers later, i find out i am the option! i am heartsick and wonder if i will ever recover or trust anyone again.That all the while, it was just a game, a ploy to replace the person he really wanted to be with.......
And now, i wish something or someone can fix me, as the music in the background claims.
i just don't want to feel again, remove all emotions, of what use is it if someone just toys with it.
i would like that one-way ticket to Australia now! There's nothing here o.
Everyone is grown and gone and as friends have been lost to their spouses.
So long, i wanted it to be Lagos, Lagos,my dear Lagos. I wanted it to be the place where i was made.
Its like i am leaving the life of some unfortunate in one of the many dramas that i have watched over the years, could i be peyton? Lucas is off again, and this time i dnt think i can take it anymore.
Have i lost all sense of self, that i made the trip?
Everything is a lie, i have to be a certain way, i am now convinced that it was when he saw the hair that i got invited, probably reminded him of one of them that he wanted.
i want to go far far away, cut out my heart, remove all sense of feeling..............no pain,no hurt,no heartache.