mechanic blues and other stories

Once upon,this person bought a car and bashed it soon after,hence she had to make
A trip to the local repair store and had to sit it the hit.she tried to call
Her boyfriend who wasn't picking and appeared to be asleep.chances are that a.she might
Be at the repair shop for a while and not see her boo or b.she might finish soon
Not see him and not bother going to see him.she will probably just go to buy
Movies,watch them,think about the year ahead and wat she wants to achieve and
And plan.otherwise she will sleep as she isn't in the mood
To see any1 but boo darling.
She has a feeling that boo isn't excited at the prospect of
Seeing her hence the movie plans.

when life may never look up!

O told us a story today,it was sad.I was angry and spoke with that tone those
On the outside looking in have-ridiculously patronising.

Someone's life is over!!!ANd if you ask me,she has three options.....
She can kill herself
She can kill him
OR they can kill him.

I donot apologise for my candor!
It was unnecessary to tell the world but he did and now she one knows.


The world as a whole is unfair,filled with mean-spirited people.

10 yeats and counting

.........

modern oldskool

I cannot say why old wrongs still sting,when the mode of injury
Resurfaces or nostalgia resurfaces.As I sat there I was so angry but
It was more at myself.
My life briefly flashed before me and the thoughts came rushing back,
I couldn't believe that at this stage,this age something like
That could still happen.
I however handled it differently.
But still,I didn't still like being there.
I hate that place of hopelessness.
They keep telling me to speak my mind but I dnt know thaty I can
It has been used so often against me that I always ask if its a
Trick.
Drugs!alcohol!they give respite when I caNnot sleep and when living
Gets hard.
Its old but it still inflicts fresh new pain.
Its modern,its oldskool,its the scars on my bruised old young
Heart.

to where from here

Even if I was to quit,what would I do next?interior design or fashion design?
All the words that are not being said.GEnius lies within,that much is true...

proof or the lack of it!

Today is my first day back and I can now understand exactly why I was so dreading it.grrrr I was tortured this morning
And I kinda dnt know how I feel,but I am not angry,quite far from it.
I do know however that something has gotta give.
I mean I did xactly wat I feared with my leave, nothing...technically.
I just lazed and didn't even watch enough tv.grrrrr!
I did however realise that I need to get on with my plan.God
Help me.

Noone quite like me

i have never in my twenty even years met anyone like me. I seem to be always be on the brink of some neurosis or the other.
I think the most frustrating thing in the world is not being able to be oneself.
But who am i ? u'll never know xoxo....no it isnt gossip girl! i dnt know myself but i do know i am a good person o.
i just want F to know and accept me for who i am, not what he might perceive me to be.
i feel guility when i call, i dnt like to take permission to do such, its quite unnatural if u ask me.

I need to consult but who?